That changed when I hit 18, beer saw to my tummy. That was addressed by moderation and exercise. Not that I was slim but I was a better shape. That reminds me I think it was three years ago my sister got me pyjamas for my Christmas that said, “I’m In Shape, Round Is A Shape.” Very droll! From memory, the next time my weight really hit me was when my parent’s died, they died within 8 months of each other. That time of my life is a bit hazy. If you have experienced grief then you will know what I am talking about. But I remember that I blew up. After my Dad’s death I was put on anti-depressants, I don’t have any sensitivity about that. I was in a dark place and not coping, I wouldn’t deal with depression like that now but at that time I needed to go down this route. Apart from “brightening my mood” those tablets had another effect, this isn’t what everyone finds, but they turbocharged my metabolic rate. I was hitting size 38 in trousers and I went down to size 32, that is something I would have never thought that could have happened. I would say 34-36 is probably about right for my build. I was stunned by it. Anyway after that, over time, the weight crept back on. I was made redundant in 2012 and I made a decision I was going to lose weight. I did a strict diet for about 2 weeks and exercised. I was surprised at myself but I did it, if you want a copy of the diet I’d be happy to share it.
I also adopted a healthier eating plan but my new job was what’s the word, **********, I’ll let you fill in the stars. I know that part of my coping with that was to eat. I stopped my healthy eating and comfort ate. When I jacked that job in, I was aware of what the job or my attitude to it had done to me, or how I had allowed it to change me, might be more accurate. So late last year I started to change my eating habits again. It made a difference but not the difference I wanted, I lost weight but not what I was aiming for. Now I didn’t start the diet on 1st January, I know New Year Resolutions work for some people, but I am just not wired that way. I actually started 6 days ago, yes this is day 7. I am not just dieting, I am also using self-hypnosis techniques and exercise. It is working and working well. My fat is burning off and my muscles are toning up. The weight isn’t dropping off but my size is reducing, muscles weigh more than fat. Part of this process for me is to have my own weight loss programme for clients. It is better to be able to help others on their journey if you have walked the path yourself. Now my diet is a 7 day diet, last time I did it for 10 days. This time I might stop tomorrow for a few days and return to it at the weekend. I am aware I go to the States at the end of the month, just after my 50th birthday, how did I get to this age??? One thing I won’t be doing on holiday is paying a lot of attention on what I am eating. The more I lose before I go the more I can be relaxed about that and when I get back I can get myself back on track.